Ask Amy: I fell hard for this man, and now I’m scared
My therapist says I could just have fun, but I don't see that happening.
Dear Amy: I ended a long and terrible marriage with an addict a couple of years ago.
The marriage was over for a long time but because of debt and the pandemic, it took us a lot longer than I wanted for the marriage to finally be done. By the end, it was like a prison sentence.
Throughout that process and for a couple of years after, I spent time working on being a stronger, independent person — both for myself and for my daughters.
Recently I started trying to date again. I met a few very nice men, but I didn’t really connect. I was sure that I was good and happy being single.
But then I met a man who really got to me. We’ve been seeing each other for about a month. Now I’m smitten.
My problem now is that I’m so attracted to him and so scared of being hurt that I just want to break up before that happens.
I know he likes me too, but I don’t think he likes me as much as I do him.
It’s a very scary place to be.
I have a therapist who advises me to just have fun, but I’m getting more and more scared as time goes on, and I just want to run and hide.
I’m too old for this silliness! Please help me to see this more clearly.
Burned
Dear Burned: First of all, this is not “silliness.” For you, fully engaging in a sexual and emotional relationship reveals your extreme vulnerability. This is the ongoing consequence of your previous experience, which you describe as a “prison sentence.”
Yes, your therapist’s advice to “just have fun” is positive and logical. But if you are becoming more afraid of moving forward in a relationship, then your therapist should encourage you to confront and explore your fear. And in my opinion, your fear is also completely logical. If you’ve been in prison, it seems smart to try to avoid incarceration in the future.
Being smitten is such a great feeling to have, but the feeling brings forth a realization of what a great risk it can be to fall for someone. The last time this happened for you, look at what happened!
My advice is to do your best to move forward in this relationship, but to try to view it as part of your process, rather than the terminus of your search for happiness with a new partner. The lack of balance you perceive between you two is a red flag. You already have awareness of that, and so pay attention to your instincts.
The right partner for you will hear your story, accept your challenges, and move forward at a pace that still feels thrilling, but is more comfortable for you.
Dear Amy: I have a friend who is hosting a baby shower for her pregnant daughter.
Her daughter lives out of state, and I have only met her once. It was a quick and short introduction with no other interaction.
I am invited to the baby shower, but I feel uncomfortable with this as I do not know the daughter and will not know anyone at the shower except my friend.
I believe invites to the shower should be for family and friends of the expectant mother.
Is it proper to be invited to a shower where you do not know the person?
Uncomfortable
Dear Uncomfortable: It sounds to me as if the prospective grandmother is trying to spread out her own joy by including at least one of her own friends in the shower guest list.
Baby showers seem to have grown from being modest affairs hosted in someone’s living room to full-blown “events.”
I can’t comment on whether it is “proper” for you to be invited to this shower. It is, however, proper to respond promptly to an invitation, expressing your appreciation for the invitation, as well as your polite regrets: “Unfortunately, I won’t be able to make it, but congratulations, Grandma! I hope everyone has a great and joyful time.”
Dear Amy: Your response to “Retired Recipient” about receiving unwanted gifts missed an opportunity.
“Retired” could donate these gifts to a women’s shelter or other charity organization, and then thank her friend for making the donation possible.
A Faithful Reader
Dear Faithful: “Retired Recipient” was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of gifts from this casual friend, even after she had asked her friend to stop.
I like your suggestion.
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