Nicole Kidman Addresses Her Mother's Death, Aging & Her Summer Plans
Nicole Kidman is getting candid about her personal life.
The 57-year-old Babygirl actress appears on the May cover of Allure, out now.
During the conversation, Nicole addressed the recent death of her mother, her own experience with motherhood, aging, taking risks and making decisions in her career, and what she’s got planned for the summer.
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On losing her mother:
“Losing my mother changed every part of me…I’m so raw with it. I feel embarrassed because I feel like, ‘Oh, you’ve talked about it enough.’ I’m trying to be quiet and have it be a more intimate thing. The love was so profound that the loss of it…I’m on the journey of grief, the year of magical thinking.”
On motherhood:
“I sit on (my teenage daughters’) beds and discuss the most intimate things; I get to be their guide. If they want to tell me to be quiet, they can. I’m able to apologize to them. I’m able to stand up to them. I very much like the relationship we have. It’s nice to be able to say that.”
On whether aging is hard:
“Yes. I’ve always been a future person, and suddenly you go, ‘Oh.’ It’s coming to terms with the idea that you have no control over the future. Probably that’s to do with losing people very, very suddenly. I have more time behind me than ahead. That shift in the ratio becomes a big thing…”
“My mom always said, ‘It’s hard being five ten and a half.’ I have not shrunk at all. I’ll be very happy when it happens. But at this stage, the last thing you need to be saying is, ‘I wish.’ At some point you go, ‘Don’t wish for anything.’ Move forward. Shut up. And get on with it.”
On getting to do weird things and push boundaries:
“I’m interested in what it means to be here, if we even are here…. What it means to be a human being in this world, at this time, on this Earth. I would love to see Earth from space. I was the kid that lay on the grass saying, ‘I want to be an astronaut.’ I’d like to do that, and then come back to the nest.”
On her summer plans:
“I’m taking the summer off – over-giving is bad for your health. You don’t say to yourself: I matter.”
For more from Nicole Kidman, head to Allure.com.